"I am proud but so frustrated
I am overcomplicated in life"
- Super8 & Tab
Its very easy to be a perfectionist. It's the number one weakness I described for myself when I was interviewing for jobs this past spring. The best example I can give you of me being a perfectionist happened this very Sunday. You see we had some friends over this weekend. My friend L'Heureux, whom I mentioned in my previous post, coordinated a surprise visit with Victoria this weekend. So naturally we decided to spend Saturday afternoon drinking and floating in the lake. Victoria's friend Jackie joined us as well.
So getting back to me being a perfectionist.. (I also procrastinate, and veer off track sometimes) I had taken a bunch of photos of the afternoon. One hundred and sixteen to be exact, a successful photography "outing". Sunday morning I woke up, made myself a coffee, unloaded my SD card on to my laptop, and began editing the RAW files from the previous afternoon. I began to toy with a couple different color edits and my enthusiasm began to quickly die out. The cause of this slow erosion of my confidence was a direct result of me being a perfectionist. I was trying to give my photos a look that they weren't meant to have. The photos then spent the rest of the day on my laptop, closed. The inspiration was gone.
In days past I would have just given up, maybe I would have made a post about them in a few days, with a few of the better images making appearances on Instagram. I knew that this time I couldn't let that happen. I couldn't fail again, especially after that last post I had written only a few days earlier. Then the idea hit me.. why not just share the photos they way I made them originally? On Saturday I had used my cameras Fujifilm Acros simulation, Acros being an old black & white film. Im glad I made that decision and I think the results speak for themselves.
So to sum it all up, it's very easy to be a perfectionist. It's easy to obsess over an idea and suffocate it until it dies. In the end you are left with nothing. Sometimes you just have to throw caution to the wind and follow what your gut tells you. Sometimes, done is better than good, and memories shouldn't be left to "die" on a hard drive. These photos may not be perfect, but they are the best representation of my Perfect Saturday. Enjoy